Just a few adjustments

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Os6raCCmAFk&feature=player_embedded

Just some thoughts

You know, I feel real confident right now. I have alot of work completed, my mind is in a clear place, and I have been in "fit" mode for quite sometime now. It's funny that I cant find a way to bottle these positive vibes for long periods of time. Periodically, I find myself missing my ex-girlfriend, but that's to be expected in a fresh breakup. Graduation will be difficult, she should be here. Katelin has been instrumental in my current success, I cant imagine a celebration of this magnitude without her. Dinner with my family will be difficult to subside feelings of broken love. To quote one of my favorite artist's Tom Petty; "Still I think of her when the sun goes down, it never goes away, but it all works out..."

Filming

I just shot another short film for my design class, it was liberating. I create these comedy sketches all day long and it was GREAT to see it come to fruition. What made it especially special to me was making other people laugh. There is something about the reaction of laughter that makes you feel indescribably fantastic. I feel like I started the week in a fog, but im really onto something special with the mood I am in right now. Im not a religious freak, but I truly thank God for that...

Monday was an unusually difficult for me. I was excited to get up and go for my run, I had my caffeine, red the paper, then headed to the studio. The day was going as planned, but I really felt out of it. Like today, I didn't have a exurbanite amount of sleep, so I fear that I wont function at a high level. However, as soon as I wake, my brain becomes active again, so I find it useless to lay in bed and waste time. I cant stand wasting time.

I am having a bit of trouble grasping the notion of school ending in 2 1/2 weeks. It's been a long, interesting, exciting journey. It could be done tomorrow, but until it is, I have alot of work to do. I never count my eggs. On to the next one....

New iphone mis-hap, very interesting

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/sciencetech/article-1267295/Gray-Powells-lost-Apple-iPhone-4G-Gizmodo.html?ITO=1490

My Plan to Make The Mets A Contender

So here's the plan...

I apply for a job with the Yankees. I eat a calzone, EVERYDAY, for 4 months near the central venting system at the stadium and convince the senile George Steinbrenner that I AM in fact, George Costanza. I then sell him on converting EVERY concession stand to all Tyson chicken. Instead of hotdogs -- chicken dogs. Instead of pretzels -- chicken twists. Instead of beer -- alcoholic chicken.

What Steinbrener doesn't know is, the papers that I had him sign were documents saying that he would buy the Mets for 200% over book value (about 2 box Frites and a Shake Shack burger), and give the Yankees to the Wilpons. Now wait, I know what your saying, how would savvy George Steinbrenner fall for this scheme? Simple. Like I said before, he's senile. When good old DJ presented him with his ring on Monday, he was quoted asking Hal: "Why is this bi-racial flat headed fan proposing to me?."

There is now an ultimate swap of Baseball in New York. In a matter of months, the Steinbrenner regime does everything it can do to make the Mets into a contender. They manage to bring in Roy Oswalt, Adrian Gonzales, Bobby Valentine, and convince The Hawaiian Hammer, Benny Agbayani to re-surface and give it another go. Before you know it, the team in Queens has a dynasty on its hands.

What ever happened to the Yanks and the Wilpons? Well the Wilpons got word on a fake idea to convert all their concession stands to Tyson Chicken, AND THEY LOVED IT. They began to sell off AROD, CC, Mo, and Jorge for pennies on the dollar to finance the Stadium wide chicken transformation. Before you know it, Brian Mehlmen is texting every Yankee fan that THEY, should convert to being a Mets fan-And he finally gets his revenge.

Time

I CANT STAND, when people waste my time. Here I am, punctual as ALWAYS, at our studio session waiting for "the talent". No show, so my teacher says that I have to figure out another time to meet with this person because he screwed up the scheduling on this asinine project. Now I understand, I am not in control. The teacher, just like a costumer in retail, gets WHATEVER they want. Ok, no problem. But can we at least see ALL the sides of the image. Can people stop being so damn ignorant and realize that when you work with someone else, your not the ONLY PERSON WHO MATTERS!!

I take punctuality extremely serious. I also am very understanding, BUT GIVE ME A REASON TO UNDERSTAND! Vent over.

Great day

They all are, just trying missing one...

It's hard to have that outlook sometimes, but it feels spectacular when you do. I tend to fall into the trap of life more often then not, but everyday conversations really help me reserect a better attitude. It is incredible how good you feel when you follow your heart. I wrote one of my best songs today, purely based on love. I was honest and forthright in my group-work throughout the day, and I had a self-revealing conversation with an insightful teacher who I admire. I need to remind myself constantly that the day doesint define you, you define the day. The pressure I embrace can sometimes be bountiful, but I embrace my challenges without hesitation. I have grown today, I want to be taller tomorrow.

Tiger Woods has officially "raped" America

Listen, let me first say that the word and action "rape", is despicable and horrifying. But what Tiger Woods is accomplishing is ALSO despicable. At 4pm tomorrow, Tiger Woods will tee off and officially show the world he has gotten away with everything but murder. (See OJ Simpson).

I believe a man can do whatever he want. But cheer him? No. I could care-less, how many std's a person want's to go get, but I will not glorify how many partners you've had. If you cheat on your spouse, I will not respect you. If you sell me on an image of perfection, you better do your best to live up to that imaginary stigma if im going to go out and buy your new nike's.

Am I mad at Tiger? No. The fact is, im more disappointed he got married. If you want to sleep around, do it, just dont hurt the people you supposedly love on the way. America is full of people who disrespect life, and truth be told, Tiger is just another "person", who takes advantage of life. He is not a "God", he is a golfer. Tiger, just like Michael Jordan, Kobe Bryant, and Ben Rothlisberger, are men that are extremly good at what they do. They have access to things regular people do not, so fine, take advantage of it. But dont be fake about it. Derrick Jeter at least stays single, so what can you say? Nothing, you can just give your dime a dozen opinion. But multiple charges against Ben Rothlisberger? Kobe cheats on his wife, goes to trial for rape, and wins a championship? WHERE IS THE REPERCUSSION? For regular people, loosing your wife, being shamed by your kids, and being booed by gobs of people would really take a tole on you, especially if you didn't have a pile of cash to sleep on. But these "Star-lits", apparently marry money digging whores who they dont care to loose, have children they are teaching to attack life the same way THEY disrespect it, and dont give a shit about the fans/supporters they praise everytime they win another championship. They are built up by a media that is waiting in the wing to destroy them, and all they need to do is balance a bucket of glass tennis balls to escape the maze of shadows their promoters create.

Curve ball, who is the victim?? The answer, nobody. You are who you want to be, and if you dont want to be that person, change. America has breeded millions of psychologist's to help you get over WHATEVER sick problem your Mommy may have pressed on to you as a child. But if you can fall asleep at night and wake up the next morning to be 12 under par, good for you. I cant. Not only can I not be 12 under par (currently), but I cant cheat my wife, America, AND MYSELF, then go perform the task of life like nothing happened. That must be the difference between me and EVERY SLY, SHADY, DISRESPECTFUL ATHLETE IN THE WORLD. I cant mask my discretions, nor would I try. MY MOTHER taught me to respect myself enough not to HIDE, anything I do. I am not perfect, nor is the next pawn Nike decides to sponsor. But at the end of the day, people, just be true to yourself, however slutty, disrespectful, and disgusting a person you may be.

Project update

I love watching our Dhani Jones project form. Its spectacular to watch sparks light a fire that im seeing grow, everytime my group puts its heads together. I thought our orginal ideas were good, in hindsight, they were merely steps to a MUCH, bigger puzzle. I am really enjoying my groups willingness to work together and reach it's potential. As one, we are letting our jobs erect from within. Each person contributes in a way that I could not see without. Not only do I enjoy the presence of each personality, I respect each member.

BONE TO PICK WITH LISA BROCK OF BROCK COMMUNICATIONS!!!

Oh do I have a bone to pick with Lisa Brock of Brock communications....

stay tuned for details....

alright ill tell you. Paint this picture in your mind. First day of class, stressed out, looking for the day to just end. I walk in, feeling good, and I get told to take my hat off. Now 4 years ago, I would have just left. That being the immature person I was (that still creeps in from time to time). But I took my hat off and asked why, (not that it would have mattered either way). Lisa said, "Because I am an old school teacher, and I find it disrespectful." Now I have been told how old school I am, and I try my best EVERYDAY to be respectful to the people around me, no problem, hat's off.

It has been what, 2 months or so? I have not worn a hat since the first day of class. I wake up every Monday morning and make sure I do my hair, not a big deal, I enjoy looking my best. But here's the crux of it all. This past Monday, I noticed 3 gentleman with hats on!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now, its possible that I just haven't noticed all semester that this has been happening, but it just hit me!!!!!!!!!!! I wanted so bad last night to say something, but I refused to throw my fellow classmates under the bus, so I figured I'd get my second blog done instead, win win.

Now you may say; "HEY!, Brian, why not wear a hat to class next Monday, out of spite? Nope, because it's not what other people do that should shape your existence, it's what you yourself do, that mold's your authenticity....

Just some Tuesday Morning Thoughts

Sleep is difficult after a class like we had Monday night. My mind was so active I couldint rest.

I enjoyed Joanna coming in to talk to us, and it was slight, but I was disappointed in myself for being the same age and not having a step on my career. However, I tried my best not to let it bother me so much where I couldint learn something, and if Joanna was not as humble and forthcoming as she was, I probably would have shut down. Instead of having feelings of disappointment, I truly was happy for her, and I wanted the same for myself. I find it such a wonderful feeling to watch someone doing what they know "they should be" doing. That person unknowingly radiates positive vibes, and that is where I want to be.

The group project is a difficult task, but it's really alot of fun. I try my best to be persuasive if I believe in something, but as much as I love having a "great idea", I love when someone has the strength to tell me my idea is lacking, it makes me work harder. I find myself reminding people in my life to criticize me. Sometimes people are terrified to disappoint, either themselves or others, but that just makes you and the person around you weaker.

Video art pisses me off

I cant stand this Pipilotti Rist crap that I have to watch sometimes. I dont understand how or why some of these nonsensical videos are considered art. These asinine ideas like shoving a nail through your balls is not art, its pure stupidity, but people are so freaken weird, they will call it a masterpiece. Listen, just because you have an idea to do something no one else has done, doesn't make you an artistic genius. Now I chose this path of communication classes that involve retarded film studies, but if I had a choice, I'd walk out on most of it. It's not interesting, ITS FREAKEN BORING USELESS NONSENSE!!!

Second Meeting

Our second meeting on the group project for Mr. Jones was successful. It was incredible how much different the meeting went. The first meeting seemed to be a meeting of minds, the second really focused on the actual ideas and development of our concept. I was really impressed with the amount of talent in our group. Everyone is more than capable of coming up with unique ideas, and everyone did. It was an enjoyable experience because we really got some solid work done. I found myself thinking today how excited I was about our project. I feel as if we have a solid concept, but I look forward to shaping it more.

Group Meet

HAHA that was fun. We will have alot to talk about come Monday, let me tell you. This group is great, so many different personalities, we found ourselves off topic a bit, but we related everything and it was very successful in my opinion. The topic of sex was an immediate thriller, and it was humorous and informative to say the least, informative because we learned just a little bit about each other. Any who, it was enjoyable, felt the need to blog this.

Creepy Wal-Mart Story

So we all know how creepy Wal-mart can be. However, due to wonderfully low prices, I decided to take a detour on my way home last week and pick up some detergent. As I pulled into the parking lot around 8pm, I noticed an odd looking guy in the parking spot across from where I pulled in. What made me notice this guy, I have no idea, however I managed to see him chatting on the phone in the passenger side in what seemed to be a beat down 90's style corolla, or something to that effect. Anyway, I didn't read to much into it, he didn't seem threatening, I have just grown up to mind my surroundings.
After purchasing my detergent, I walked out through the sliding doors and began the path to my car. I noticed somebody on a phone walking around my truck, and I immediatly got on my guard. I wasint nervous, but I wanted to be aware. As I got closer, I made sure I noticed every angle of my truck, and I started my engine remotley. The gentleman that was near my car was still on the phone, but now, and constantly, was at a safe distance walking away from me. As I crept up to the driver side door, i noticed a business card on the door. The card read; "17 yr-old cute gay boy, text me." WOW!!!! I flipped the card off my window, jumped in the car and drove away saying "What the F happened here." As I drove away, I watched the guy walking and noticed he was looking down at the card, and I assumed it was him who wrote it. It was a weird experience, I have been threatened before, but not like that haha.

Group

It's interesting. It always feels good to be wanted, and it felt like more than one person wanted me in there group. Honestly, the way I am, I felt like I could work with anyone in the class. I feel I have a unique way of bringing the best out of people, and finding the positive in anyone. My biggest fear was working in a group with too many leaders. Sometimes when you have to many people who want to take control, nothing gets done, no one stays on track, and there is a slight power struggle. But even if that was so, I feel the person that I am, I could adapt to the roll of mediator, if that's what the group needed. I love group work, and the bouncing of ideas from one person to the next. I love my group, and I honestly believe if we use our full potential, we will germinate something special.

3D TV..... CRAZY

http://mashable.com/2010/03/09/samsung-3d-tv-starter-kit/

Obit

I wrote my obituary the other day. Man it feels weird to say that, haha. Im gonna be honest, it was fun as hell, haha, no pun intended...

Without giving away the actual exercise, I really took the approach to it that I do with life. It has a bit of my humor, intellect, aspiration, and brute honesty. I really see where Professor Brock was going with this exercise, but im sure I will be surprised at ANOTHER reason why we did it. Either way, I actually enjoyed it. Looking forward to bringing it in.

Spring Break

Picked up my girl from the airport this morning. I dont understand why it says arrival 9:05am, then she's here at 8:45am, im not complaining, I just dont want to make her stand there. I calculated my time perfectly though. The airport always fascinated me. There is so much going on, and so many people managing so many aspects of SO many divisions in this small Country like atmosphere. Its actually amazing we just had one disaster like 9/11. There are so many people in transit I actually feel the need to praise government officials for monitoring our air travel so well, job well done. Millions travel every day, and that isnt an easy thing to keep track of.

Yo, Tim!

Tim Tebow are you freaken kidding me?? $160 to get an autograph you should be giving out for free at this stage of your career?? Listen, Im all business, and when you can make money, great, go for it. But dont sell me this image that your such a big humanitarian, then go ask me to plunk down $160 for your hand cock. Can I at least get a picture with that? OH I CAN!!!! For $75 that is!!!!!!!! Call me the one person who wasint really sold on this kid to begin with, but this crap didnt push me in the right direction. Yea, I know, he donated a portion to HIS OWN, foundation. The same foundation that employees what, his Mother, Father, brother, sister and cousin, whoever. Listen, simple math says you made at least $250,000 with this stunt, (NOT INCLUDING PHOTOS), you should be giving 249,000 of it to the Jimmy V fund...

Sunday

I feel good. Healthy weekend, ran alot, got all my work done, went out. Mentally I feel like im at the top of my game, thats refreshing. So often I feel like theres more for me to do, or a cloud hanging around. Im really enjoying my internship, even though I have to wake up at 4:30am tomorrow on my week off. It doesint matter, I look forward to tomorrow morning. My gf is coming in on Tuesday, it should be a great week, and I look forward to the rest of the semester, it could very well be my last ever. It has been a long road, I dont think its nearly over, but I feel proud of myself for at least getting to this point, in a position to achieve.

Finally, a classy chick

http://www.nypost.com/p/pagesix/megan_fox_ve_only_slept_with_men_TRaWjcCmvAvLPdspKUIzLJ

Monday

Starting the day in ny, I had no idea how I was going to make it to 10pm. On about 2 hours of sleep, the flight was great, and the way back was smooth, I was exhausted. I came home and had about 20 minutes to nap, then I was off to school. First class was good, reviewed for a text. Second class was great, I received a great test grade. I was more nerve racked about my night class, not because I wasint prepared, but because I was so tierd. I really make an effort to contribute to class, and I knew I was going to collapse. But I trucked through the day well, and I felt really confident about the midterm we took. I was pissed though because my wirting looks horrible. I felt the content was great, but the image looked sloppy. I tried my best to slow down, but still not very clean. I was relieved because I knew I wrote alot of exceptional things.

Sunday in Ny

I had a great trip back home. We celebrated my Mothers birthday, I saw my new born Goddaughter, spent time with my girl, and saw the boys. Its real hard coming back here knowing I have to leave again. I think being in a cycle for me is great, but when I inject old feelings or surroundings, it throws me for a loop. The only success Iv found, is simply just keeping up with life. The minute you let things pile up on you, the easer it is for your legs to shake. I need to focus on the big picture.

New York Eve

I wrote a couple of ruff drafts for our mid-term paper this evening. At first, I was thinking, man I want to do this essay solo. But I'v done a million of those, Im very curious to see how the tandem process will work. I actually think it will make me a better writter, I love other people's perspective on my work.

In about 24 hours I will be back home in NY. Sometimes I think I take a step backwards when I go home. I start to get into a groove here in Florida, and when I get a dose of friends, family, and my g/f, it really throws me for a loop. I find it difficult to readjust when I come back and I loose all of that. Obviously it will be there when I get back, but it seems to be vaporous when I am here in Tampa. I Constantly have to remind myself why I am here. I'm real excited to meet my Goddaughter, I feel honored to have that title. I will be flying in on my Mothers birthday, I wish I had more of a means to be able to get her something special, but I know all she wants is a hug. I miss my Grandmother very much as well, she and I have always had a very special relationship. My g/f and I really need some face to face time. It's difficult to be in a long distance relationship, but it helps with how supportive she is, and it's easy when you focus on how much you love each other. I'm dieing for a night out with the boys. I dont know anyone else who has friends that they went to kindergarten with, I have a real tight nit crew, there the best

Anyway, adios.

Class

Loved class tonight. I was really in a funk this weekend. Lovers quarrels (to put it amiably), alot of work, screwed up plan's Saturday night, it was a full weekend of crap to piss me off. Any who, I was not excited for Monday to start, to say the least, but tonights class really got me feeling confident again. The discussion's about Wordcraft, and Tiger, really got me feeling back to my old self. Maybe it's because I was able to voice my opinion without any particular backlash. It seems like in a relationship when your arguing its a one way path of aggravation. It's very frustrating when two people who love each other so much, cant seem to get on the same page. But a trait of true love is the wherewithal to keep going for the greater good, the love. It's when you give up that you know the love doesn't exist, so even in a quarrel, im somewhat happy.

Working with Kelly tonight was great, you really get to know someone when you work independently together, she seems like a great girl. Im glad I have the opportunity to learn from her.

Tiger

Many of you, reading my blog, are my friends.....

OH, MY, GOD. Tiger Tiger Tiger, why wouldint you man up and let the media ask some questions? Get it over with, Mark McGuire did it, Kobe, A-rod, Mike Vick, MAN UP!! Im glad he didint get beat up by his woman, yippie.None of this fake press confrence matters. His first swing wil be the highest rated golf event in history. This hole debacle will be an after thought when he starts to win again, and he will win again. He can have as many of these "presidential Style" news conferences as he wants, if he doesint start speaking from his heart, I will always consider him fake, and the greatest golfer of all time, which is the only thing we ever cared about in the first place. So open up Starbucks again and lets move on people.

Hollywood Fatty kids kicked off of Southwest

http://www.nypost.com/p/news/national/director_fed_up_syAY2YA2MaFsIhxq3Ve0RJ

Very interesting. Bad publicity for SW.

Chapter 5

Eh. I really do enjoy this Wordcraft book. However, Chapter 5 was brutal. It started out promising then in the middle of him telling this compelling story of a multi billion dollar company splitting, he goes off on a tangent that lost me. Now I dont know if I just didn't understand, was fed up with reading, my ADD was kicking up, but I had enough. Thank God I trucked forward to here what the name ended up being but still. I felt like I could have cut out 8 pages.

The second thing that got me was the prize of going to Australia for winning the branding contest. This type of corporate crap pisses me off. I think the number was around $30 million that they spent on adverting the new name, probably more. Your telling me you couldint give this guy one million for naming your multi billion dollar company. Honestly, i'd be pissed. Yeah, a trip to Australia is nice, BUT COME ON!!!!!!

All Star weekend

NBA All Star weekend. There was a time and a place where we would all get together and watch a ridiculous dunk contest and a start studded fun All-Star game. Now, not so much. The dunk contest was terrible. Nothing new, nothing exciting, and way to conservative. Im happy a Knick won, but even Nate Robinson was un-electric. Charles Barkley, who I rarely think has something provocative to say, had a great quote right before they decided who won. "Maybe no one will win". Simple, and completely right. Barkley is the epitome of fake in my eyes, everyone claims him to be this real guy, who speaks his mind, but there is a different between speaking your mind and just saying nonsense to make controversy, he's the latter in my opinion.

The all star game was what it is, a offensive game. What is so amazing is a guy could play 20% of the games and get elected in, such as Allen Iverson. Its a popularity contest to the fulliest, yet the popular players wont compete in the dunk contest anymore.

The Reading

Oddly enough I enjoyed reading the Word Craft book, the first three chapters anyway. It was real nice not to read a textbook for once, but better than that, it was a great couple of chapters. The insight was incredible into the world of namers and I loved how it had real life examples of products I am familiar with, big time products. I loved the BlackBerry example. The symetry with the words, 5 letters each, the relation to a fruit that grows on a network in a tree, and the thing that really intrigued me was the sound explanation. The creators introduced strawberry for a name but the BlackBerry sounds alot snappier, I loved that explanation.

It was also great to get a sneak peak into the Lexicon company. I feel like you rarely get a first hand look into a huge company like that one.

I hated the name Quiddity for a company, it just sounds terrible to me. I feel like you stumble over the words, and it just makes no sense, you cant relate to it. However, it does seem to fit into most of the other odd company name's out there. I guess all that matters is the bottem line...

Friday Flight

Just dropped off my gf at TPA. Really it was painless other then the fact she was leaving. What I mean by painless is the whole process. People really make a big deal about how much of a pain in the ass it is, but even with a 2 hour delay, then a 45 min retraction, it all worked out. The whole trip was great. We went to the Lighting game, sat in a skybox on Tuesday night, did a dinner at home, went to the movies, went to the state fair, and went out to eat at the Capital grille for our valentines dinner that we are not going to be together for. I love going out to eat, Lobster Bisque was great, filet was butter.

Now back to reality, work tomorrow, reading to do.

Class

Every time I want to hate and dread going to this class, (Advertising), I love our discussion. I come away feeling more empowered. The seminar was good, something my Mother probably wanted me to go to years ago. My favorite thing so far in this class, and it was said first day, is "go in the direction of your dreams". I loved music, and I saw two music classes that I wanted to take here at UT, and that propelled me (one reason), to attend.

I hated picking my girlfriend up today then dropping her off and going to school. I have four days with her, and I had to be at school. She respects me for that, and I love her for understanding, and also supporting the fact Im following my dreams. Support is so key in living strong.

Friday

Well instead of going to Miami Im hanging out watching tv. Sometimes in life you have to make conscious decisions you dont like, but you know are best in the long run. Or maybe the short, my gf is coming in Monday, the smart decision was to save the money and enjoy it next week. Since im not always known for making brilliant decisions, im proud of myself lol. The two chapters we had to read were insightful. I hate reading, but I will be honest, really fed that power of thinking outside the box. It gave alot of great points for road blocks. I love how it completely banded the word "best" from advertising, its true, it gets over used. After reading I attacked the hw and I just felt my creative blood boiling. I came up with some interesting stuff, but I want to sleep on it and see if I can make it better.

Tuesday

Had a good day at the radio station today. Thank God for coffee because the 3 hours I slept wasintnearly enough. My gf's brother was in a car accident last night which wasint his fault, everyone involved seems to be ok. Still, any time something like that happens, it makes you reflect and realize how important enjoying life is. When my gf texted me in class, my stomach dropped. A good buddy of mine was in a motorcycle accident and he is in a horrible state. I couldint help but think about my friend and I am real happy everyone was ok, I saw first hand how terrible it could be.

Monday

I'm feeling a little overwhelmed, I have alot on my mind these days. On a lighter note, I cant wait to see my g/f who is coming to visit me next Monday. She is coming for just 4 days, but its much better than nothing. I just wish I didn't have so much to do during the week, we are gonna have alot of obstacles, but that's a long distance relationship for you.

Just a thought

I was thinking about the group work I did on Monday night in class. Its funny, when we were trying to write the one sentence to describe the John Mayer song, I felt like the group was not connecting. I think the reason is, it was a group of three, really strong leaders. It just re-assured me how much diversity a group really needs. I felt like we all had great ideas, but we could not piece them together because we were similar people. I think the best group is a well rounded group that can feed off each other. However, to contradict my point, I know that if we had more time, we would have without a doubt came up with the best idea. But in life there's deadlines so....

GREAT DAY!!!!!

I had one of the best days of my life today, the best since I have been here. First off, my Grandaughter was born today, my cousin gave birth to a little baby girl, unnamed, but soooo beautiful. I wish I was there in NY, I havint missed any of my siblings births. But we all make sacrafices, and my family is proud that I am here earning a degree.

My second pleasure of the day is that my girlfriend cared so much to buy me a gift for an extra christmas present. She does little and big things like this to make me so happy, and that is love. Not the gift part, but the actions.

The third part of my day that was great was the fact that I was on 3 hours of sleep and interning this morning at the station was great. I helped with the production of the show and it felt real good, I networked and met some great people.

My other class was great as well, I really felt so good that a friend of mine said I was radiating. That felt great, and I was able to embrace the work and really make people laugh, I love making people laugh, its a great feeling.

One of my biggest problems is how down I get sometimes. I go through alot of high;s and lows, and I really, really want to feel how I felt today, everyday, for the rest of my life. I think im just going to try to remind myself how great I felt today, and maybe that will help.

The day after

I was exhausted after class and had work early in the morning, therefore I could not initially jump on, create a blog and react. Instead, I jotted down some notes last night and waited till now.

My first night was a little overwhelming, but not bad at all, it was a great learning experience. I was not happy I had about 4 hrs to sleep but thats my bed, and I have no problem laying in it. I have always enjoyed and embraced a challenge. I have never been a good student, but with age, I feel like I have grown an appreciation for learning.

I currently work/intern for WFLA, helping the host, the producer, and the board opp. Radio has always been a fascination of mine, I'm glad I finally worked up the courage to go explore it. One thing that hit me hard in class was when my professor said, (and not in these exact words), you may not know where your going, but go in the direction of your dreams. That really hit home for me because I am not exactly sure what I want, but in coming to UT, I went to a surrounding that made some of my interests come true. I am very interested in music, I am taking a music class, film and writing is the same way. For the first time in my life, It feels like I am going in the direction of my soul...

First day

First day of class was a mix of emotions for me. On the first hand, I was surprised that my Professor asked me to take my hat off, I have not heard that for quite some time. A younger me would have said, "Screw this shit, im out". At 25, I begain to try to understand what why my professor wanted me to do that, instead of just reacting. After thinking about it for about 4 minutes, I just stopped and said to myself, "It doesint matter, that's what she wants, done". What aggravates me is that I am a HUGE believer in first impressions. I am a person who also believes strongly in the concept, "Dress for success", and I felt like I was not representing myself well in front of someone who I began to instantly respect, not because I knew her, but because I respected her assertiveness, something I seem to lack at times.